I can’t believe that ten years later has gone by so quickly and that now at 26. I’m married, have a house, and I’m in grad school and I know that you would be proud and happy for all of these things, but largely surprised at how non-linear this path was (and that’s okay).
There are going to be a lot of road bumps in the way: some of your own causing, some of other’s causing, and sometimes just because of life; these are the little things that will really teach you about grace.
You should know that your self-worth isn’t the number on a bathroom scale or how many dates you have on the weekend. I wish I could tell you that the most important things to love at this age, or really at any age, are yourself and God and then everything else that matters falls into place. I could tell you many other things that will sound cheesy, but in reality, when I pour back through my daily blogs of me at your age I really just want to give you a hug.
You’ll try a lot of things like orchestra, debate, newspaper, choir, and take seven foreign language classes in high school like a crazy person- even though it’ll take you 9 years to get the guts to actually study Linguistics formally. You’ll find things you’re good at, people that will teach you what a friend looks like, and you’ll wonder way too much about the type of person you’re going to marry someday. SURPRISE! He’s on the other side of the country, was just baptized into your church, and he is listening to the same Dashboard Confessionals and Jimmy Eat World albums as you; he’s worth the wait.
I wish you could understand that everything that feels so big and important right now probably isn’t. You’ll be surprised to know that the only time you see people from high school post-graduation is on the internet. The friends you’ll gain matter because people matter, but don’t let rumors or bullies control your thoughts or actions.
High school is hard, college is hard, jobs are hard, and you’ll find that life is hard; however, you can handle it. You’ll experience Hail Mary passes in life right before you feel like you can’t handle it anymore and you’ll experience joy from all of the contrast and meaning in life. I promise everything will be a lot better than you can expect.